Well as some of you know and if you don't well now you do, that I do a lot of volunteering in my town. Lately, I seem to get all the seniors... no biggie I like them! They have a lot to tell you if you only listen.
I've been working with this one lady on and off, at first in her home and now at the old age home she's in. I remember when I helped her unpack her belongings into her new place, I was shocked. While helping her unpack her bedroom box, I pull out this thing in a box labeled "fragile!" I nearly died! As I unrolled the newspaper that covered it and holding it now in my hand, she turns to me and says "oh that's my boyfriend! put him in my night table!"
OMG I was holding this old ladies dildo! lol I just stood there not moving, in total shock! She said "oh get over it dear, we all get the urge!" OMG OMG! Did I just hear this from an almost 80 year old woman???
We proceed to unpack more things and now we are down to her photo albums. I asked her if I could peek, she said sure. She was on a soft ball team! She was absolutely gorgeous, shapely but fit! When she saw me looking at those pics, she said "you know every boy in town was after me!" She had made prom queen and won some beauty contests. Looking at those photos made me sad because now she is so old and fragile.
She started to tell me that when she looks in the mirror she doesn't even recognize the person she sees. She said the problem is that on the inside she's still 30, but the outside doesn't reflect that nor does it let her do all the things she would like to. She said youth is wasted on the young.
She said she used to put a lot of emphasis on her beauty. Beauty mattered, it was very important, she said it still is but she has come to realize that the only beauty that truly sticks around is the inner beauty of a person. Which, we all know that anyways, it's not news to anyone. But I could see that it must have been harder on her to grow old than a regular person. I don't know, just my thinking. From being model beautiful to the way she looks now, must be hard. I mean it's hard on everyone, no one wants to get old. Forget just the wrinkles alone, but the having to depend on people... that's even harder.
I went to pick her up the other day and do some things around town with her, and she was saying how upset she is because she's now lost all privacy. They don't allow locks on the doors, in case she falls, or something goes wrong. I felt bad for her. Then she made me die of laughter by saying "now how will I get some boyfriend time in?!" (her dildo) I told her that "well they don't really check in on you after lunch till almost supper time, so you will have some time!" and she said "well you got to strike while the iron is hot... I can't plan this!" Which is so true!
WOW never did I think that masturbation would be so important at that age lol. I don't know I mean I want to be horny till the day I die, but when you look at a really old person, you just don't think that that matters to them.
What can you do I guess but try to live a long life, fill it with lots of laughs and love as much as possible. Looks shouldn't matter as much as they do, because in the end, we are all old and wrinkly and never that person that we would look at and say "damn I want to fuck that!" So what matters most is being able to surround yourself with the beautiful on the inside people you know the kind that you think to yourself, "I want to spend more time with that incredible person." Because looks will fade, and we are left only with the beauty on the inside, and hopefully it's beautiful and not ugly, because then, we are no good to anyone, just an empty old shell.